Transparency I

Psalm 63:1 “I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.”

That’s how I feel… have been feeling- thirsty, in a desert, looking for an eternal oasis that will forever satisfy my thirst. My thirst for worship, intimacy with God, conversations, earnest prayer, love, His Holy Spirit, a breakthrough… freedom. What is my “dry and parched land?” It could be a couple of things- (of which I name but have deleted for privacy). According to this verse, my solution lies in who I’m longing for. I find myself sometimes mistakenly longing for Emmanuel, the human, or even just a caring male, when it should be the Emmanuel, the spiritual. *Funny how the enemy sows seeds in your life when you're younger; if allowed, they really do grow and take serious dedication to completely uproot.* The fact is, as this verse obviously states, the One I’m sincerely and truly thirsting for, when it gets down to it, is my Heavenly Daddy.

Thirst-
*a need for liquid (it’s not simply something I want- it’s a necessity in order for me to properly function, with that “liquid” being God, salvation through His son Jesus Christ, and His Holy Spirit)
*a strong desire for something (in my case, someOne and His thing- His Presence through His Spirit)

On the Road to Recovery
Step 1: We must recognize that ourthirst (as felt in our inability to be satisfied physically by whatever means we deem necessary) is not for anyone or anything in the physical realm, but it originates from a spiritual thirst for our absolute Creator- our Heavenly Father. Why do you think every little girl's life is significantly altered by the presence or absence of her father? No matter how we try to cover it up, scapegoat the situation, or completely (or even partially) deny it, our thirst begins there. We need and strongly desire our Daddy. Period.

Part I