How desperate are you?

While in Virginia on Saturday, Pastor got a call that one of our older teenagers got into an accident after football practice- hit a tree dead-on while trying to avoid a pothole. I did not realize the extent of the physical damage until today when I saw him in church. This young man should-have-died... but God. Yes... he was in church. Damage was obvious as I looked at his scars and the swelling on his face. Beyond this, this young man temporarily cannot see through his right eye nor can he talk as the right side of his body has neural damage. He was guided to the front during praise and worship by holding someone's hand; he's not immobile, but can move little, such as slowly walking with someone and holding up his left hand. Just seeing him there blessed me as I and so many others realized the grace and mercy to have the ability to move our limbs to praise God. But this wasn't all God wanted me to see, learn and be blessed by through this young man.

Just in the 4 months I've been at KAEC, it has been more than obvious that this young man has a heart after God and his people. I can say without a doubt he is continuing to love & trust God even more. As pastor showed the video below (previous blog) to the congregation, God's spirit dropped heavily and I got out my sketch pad and utensils to draw. The lights were out as people soaked in His presence. As I began to draw in the spirit while Kim Walker was singing, God said, "Look up." I looked up to see this young man crawling on his hands and knees to the altar. "THAT is the work of my hands; that is art." I pushed everything aside and just melted in God's presence, realizing this:

How dare we, with our mobile and so-called secure selves, allow our present circumstances and situations bind our hearts from reaching out to God? Here was a young man who, despite his physical situation, hung onto God, clung to Him and crawled to that place of God in order to meet him. A young man who's foundation is in Christ and said, nevertheless... I WILL seek the Father with all that is in me. Aaaaaaaah... as tears flow from my eyes at the sight of that prophetic moment in my mind, I canNOT make excuses. I can't look at my present situations or circumstances and allow them to guide my spiritual and physical movements. Oh GOD!!! If we could just get THIS! If we would just so desperately go after You, how much more will You come to us and embrace us and guide us in the ways we should go?

How bad do you want Him? If broken, to what lengths would you go to to seek the Father? This young man's great desire for God will never leave my spirit as he allowed God to use him to bring about a mind-blowing revelation: our present circumstances may physically and emotionally overwhelm us. But your spirit man must answer the question, despite it all...

Just how desperate are you?